So I’ve been reading the book on self esteem and I amaze myself.. however, not in a good way. One of the exercises was to take note each time you say something bad to yourself.. It said that if you get 10 in one day, that’s good. The first day, I got 23. Wow. That’s a lot of negative self-talk.
The next step is to diffuse that critical voice.
I’m back on the blessed thistle, so hopefully, that will help with that critical voice.. but there’s something bigger that I’m concerned about.
On the one hand, I don’t want to expose my son to a lot of other children because of all the infection diseases that children typically get. GI infections and hand-foot-and-mouth disease are 2 in particular that I’d like to avoid. Last year, many people I knew had GI go through their homes. It sounded horrible.
Then on the other hand, I’m concerned that my son is growing to be a home-body. I suppose this isn’t necessarily a bad thing. My husband and I both enjoy spending time at home, so perhaps my son has picked up this trait. I would like for him to be more social than myself or my husband. Is that unreasonable? We had gone to the aquarium the day before yesterday. We spend 15 minutes on our own and then went to meet up with a number of other moms, toddlers, and babies. However, when everyone gathered and were ready to look at some fish, my son didn’t want to go. Instead, he wanted to go see the frogs while everyone was watching the sharks.
We wandered around the aquarium on our own for an hour and a half. Then as we were sitting having some french fries, one of the moms came by to buy some food and told me where everyone else was. We walked back to the group with her and sat with everyone for 15 minutes. I’m glad that I was able to spend a little time with the other moms because I had made the plan to meet at the aquarium and I didn’t get to talk to anyone until that point.
Tags: aquarium, self esteem, socialbility
